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I wish
                             I hate feeling like this
                 I can feel all my emotions fighting each other
                   Trying to overpower all the other emotions
                         I feel as if I'm losing my mind
                       All the chaos that's inside my head
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Chaotic Downfall-The Beginning
In the beginning, everything was normal. I was normal, well to a point anyway. I was a teenager, finishing up my last year of high school. I hated my high school with such a passion, that I was ecstatic beyond all words to be getting out of that hell whole. I guess it all started when I was having a particularly bad day. Nothing seemed to be going right, and even the smallest of things were going wrong as well. I was walking home, my head phones at the loudest setting they could go to, blaring out my music as I ranted quietly to myself. I didn’t notice the out of control truck heading my way behind me, or the yelling and warnings to get out of the way from on looking people, either. Well, I had chosen at that moment to look behind like I normally do, I’m slightly paranoid but I think it’s because of all the horror movies I watched. My eyes went wide when I saw the truck, not even 12 yards away from me. My mouth opened in to scream, but nothing came out. I was frozen soli
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Chaotic Downfall
FOOLS! All of them fools...They believe me to be their friend, that I wouldn't do anything horrid or out-of character. That they know me sooo well. Hmph. Fools. Shows what they know. They have no idea what's going on behind the mask. That my anger is rapidly increasing, aching to burst forth from the prison I've locked in for many years. That I'm planning their very downfall, even now. They've no idea the wrath they have unleashed upon themselves by crossing me.
     Heh. It's almost amusing. The expressions they'll make as I make their world fall apart by the seams. I could almost laugh at their dismay as my rage and hatred are finally released from their prison. But now is not the time. No, I'll have to wait until  the oppertune moment arrives.
     But that's alright, I can wait. I can be paitent until then. While I wait, I can perfect my plans and make each plan more, personalized, for each of my friends. I can
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I looked inside myself today
I still don’t understand what I saw
It was so lonely and dark
The cold hand of Death was blocking out all light and hope
Emerging everything in darkness
For a moment I was afraid
I wasn’t even sure if I was still alive
I felt like I was falling
With no way to keep myself from plunging into the black ocean of despair below me
After an eternity of hoping to be saved,
I sank into the depths of the dark water
I looked around
Looking for something, or someone, to save me
But it was all in a shallow hope
No one was there to save me
No one was there to hear my desperate screams
No one was there to keep me from drowning or to save me from my own demons
I could feel the air start to get colder around me
My vision blurred and started to darken
I watched as a play of the people who I knew began before me
No one cared that I was missing
No one noticed that I wasn’t around
No one wondered where I was
No one cared about me at all!
As the sc
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Running Away
I can’t take it anymore
I’m so confused with everything
I’m lost without even taking the first step
Why did you betray me & leave me here?
I feel so alone & empty inside
I need to get away from here
Your memories still lingers
Taunting me into insanity
I blame myself for your betrayal
I must have done something wrong
If not, then why did you leave?
Why couldn’t you leave me alone?
You like to see others suffer by your hand,
You drag your “victims” down
And watch as we drown
You steal our breath as we sleep
And then you leave us
Weakened and left to rot in despair
While your spirit lingers, stealing what little sanity we have left
Not anymore
I’m tired of this
I’m leaving now
I’m running away from all your lies & disseat!
You can’t hurt me anymore!!!
I’m keeping myself from falling down & drowning
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Can't Save Me
I’ve been left here to wander around
All by myself in this cold world
No one cares
No one can save me now
I feel like I’m dying
Drowning in all these emotions
No one cares to save me
I’ve been left here to die
I’m watching as the world slowly turns
So many people lost in despair
With no one to help them out
‘Cause no one cares
We’re all alone
We’ve been left behind
All by ourselves in this cruel world
No one cares
No one to save us now
There’s no one there.
God can’t save us now.
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Can you see me here?
Can you see my crying face without you near?
It was so hard to stay alive
But I lived each day to see your face again
Even though you left me here
Even when you broke my fragile heart
I still love you
Can’t you see?
I’ll love you until the end of time
Time went by so fast and now you’re gone
Only a year has passed
But it seems so much longer to me
Watching you with her
I felt so tattered inside
So lonely
I feel as if I’m dying again
I hope your happy now
It’s time for me to go now
I just wanted you to know
That even though I’m gone
I’ll always love you
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No One But Me
All of it begins to fade
The shadows start to consume…Everything
Everyone’s gone
No one’s here
All alone
All alone with all the shadows closing in
No light here
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Slowly falling
Slowly fading
People dying
People killing
Is this real?
Is this fake?
All this fighting,
All of this is just so tiring!
Am I awake?
Am I Dreaming?
I am tiring.
I am dying.
All this chaos is just so tiring.
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Our Green Lady by dragonXsphere Our Green Lady :icondragonxsphere:dragonXsphere 1 0 A Glance Up The Skyscrapers by dragonXsphere A Glance Up The Skyscrapers :icondragonxsphere:dragonXsphere 0 0 My corner of Despair -WIP- by dragonXsphere My corner of Despair -WIP- :icondragonxsphere:dragonXsphere 0 2 Geisha by dragonXsphere Geisha :icondragonxsphere:dragonXsphere 4 0 Mermaid by dragonXsphere
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New job!!

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 7, 2014, 2:48 PM

So I recently got a new job and I start on the 14th. Hopefully I'll be able to get more of my projects done now that I have the fundage to do so.

  • Listening to: In This Moment
  • Reading: nothin' atm
  • Watching: nothin really
  • Drinking: Tea



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:love: Thank you for the favorites, it really means ever so much to me that you enjoy my artwork! I invite you to add me to your watch so that you can see all the future beaded and stitched pieces I have planned! :blowkiss: Just think of the sparkles... :squee:
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